Never trust the picture


OK, this is really bugging me so to the point where I don´t even know how to start writing this blog post. Things keep playing over and over in my mind, which is how it goes when we can´t let go of things us humans ☺…

This morning, late morning that is, I took the husky ladies for a walk on the beach.
Or maybe they took me for a walk ☺ ?
Either way, it was a beautiful, windy morning with storm clouds on the horizon, all shades of blues and greys of the sky meeting the different sand colours of the beach itself.

Quite early in our walk I noticed two horses further up direction north. I could not see any riders on the horses, but after some time I could distinguish people next to the horses.

“How nice”, I thought to myself. “They are out walking the horses on the beach”.

As we got closer I saw a totally different picture.

A beautiful, grey-whitish (“skimmel” you call that colour horse in Swedish) horse with a female rider in a pink vest and glasses doing what first looked like some sort of dressage dance in the sand.
Kind of side ways and backwards.

For a split second it made me think of the dance of the Lipizzaner horses at the Spanish Riding School in Vienna.
For a very split second. Maybe just a 100th of a second…

The it got very clear that this horse was being steered towards the inwards moving tide, with extremely low, pretty soft waves and the horse was shit scared. She did totally not want to get into the water.

A bit further out, at the brim of the ocean, stood a dark brown horse with a girl dressed in dark coloured riding clothes, looking really confident with a camera around her neck.

It was quite obviously a photo shoot session for whatever reason on the beach with horse and rider and the horse did not want to get in to the moving water.

People had stopped to watched. Not many, but a few.
After all it was Thursday morning early October and people have to work 9-5 too right?

Dark Horse Girl got Grey Horse Girl to come up closer – told her something which could not be heard over the wind – and Grey Horse Girl whipped her horse real hard.

OK, I am not a horse person.
I know zilk about horses.
I took 12 riding lessons when I was 11 and was scared most of the time.
The past years I have been on a horse back for about 30 minutes all together, with my sister who is a Natural Horsemanship practitioner and her extremely calm horse.

But I am an Animal Communicator and a Reiki Master. I have spoken to a lot of horses the past 4 years of that career, I have shared Reiki moments with lots of these beautiful beings. And I am an Earthling. Like all species on this planet. Earthlings all experience fear, pain, joy the same way through the nervous system . It is scientifically proven even.
And that was not a slight touch with the whip to steer the horse in the direction you want it to go – it was “smack, smack” and the horse got even more agitated. It moved sideways, tried to move its head.

Grey Horse Girl got her horse closer to Dark Horse Girl.

Dark Horse Girl got her whip out and 5 times whipped Grey Horse on the ass, so loud you could hear it over the wind, leaving marks I could even see from the at least 25 or more meters away where I was standing.

I got shocked.
People left.
The people who stayed obviously approved of this.
Or did they?
I don´t know.
I did not ask them, so how could I know?

I gathered the husky ladies to go up and talk to the two girls on the horses.

Grey Horse Girl was taken off by Grey Horse a bit up the beach. More whipping and Grey Horse turned back.

It seemed Dark Horse Girl was in charge so I got ready to walk up to her and talk to her.

I had this plan of introducing myself and letting her know I am an Animal Communicator, offering to help or explain what was going on from Grey Horse´s perspective.

As I went through this in my head Grey Horse made it clear that she wanted to run back and forth up the stretch of sand where they were taking the pictures, and that she this way would be able to proceed in to the water after a while. In her way.

She showed me an experience where she had been forced in to a river, the currents were really strong and caught some of the horses and they all got swept quite a bit down river before they made it up safe and sound with riders and all on the other side of the river bank.

I was going to go up to Dark Horse Girl and let her know.

She came towards us.
Gave Dark Horse to a lady on the beach.
The lady gave her a look saying “what? Me?” and Dark Horse Girl said “she is really nice”. In German.

The lady proceeded to answer and all of a sudden Dark Horse Girl said in German “I only speak German, no other language and I need to have a smoke”.

Grey Horse Girl was having heavy problems further up the beach with Grey Horse, the whipping getting more intense.

Another split second decision – Grey Horse needed whatever help she could get right now.

I had been thinking of more options – not just talking to Dark Horse Girl , but to call Animal Protection and get them down on the beach , reporting what was obviously animal abuse, calling the police even, filming and sharing on social media… It is amazing how many thoughts and ideas you can force through your mind in a matter of a few minutes.

I walked towards Grey Horse and Grey Horse girl with the husky ladies.

I raised my right hand to draw the Reiki symbols – first for emotional healing and peace, then for physical strength.

I got contact with the horse
I told her “You are a beautiful being, you are strong, you can do this, the water has no power over you, the stupid human being on your back has no power over you, she is actually totally unintelligent and dumb (yes, I know this is not the way a yogi should speak, not a constructive way of saying things but I was really upset and angry and cannot pretend that was not the case), you are beautiful, you are strong, you have purpose, I love you.”

I kept saying “you are strong, you are beautiful, you are wise, you are needed, I love you” out loud even for quite some time while asking Reiki energy to be with Grey Horse. Drawing the symbol for healing the soul.

She ran back and forth next to the water, she then went in to the water and continued to run in the sometimes ankle sometimes knee deep sea for her, up and down the same route.

“You are strong, you are beautiful, I love you, you are better than any human treating you that way, I love you”.

I kept talking to Grey Horse, Akasha and Elsa sat down in the sand watching it all.

People were walking up and down the beach taking photos of the beautiful couple in the sea.
The human and the horse.
Little did anyone know what it took to get that scene.

It made me wonder right then and there, and I also wish I could have had a chance to ask that question to Dark Horse Girl and Grey Horse Girl if one – do they hit their children, their friends and parents too to get them to do what they want?
Two – when you publish that picture of you on Facebook or Instagram, galloping through the waves, most likely sharing that it is a moment to remember – is it really? Are you proud of your actions leading up to creating that so called picture perfect moment?
Three – What are you afraid of? Would you like anyone to force you to do what you are afraid of through violence, or would you rather somebody helped you with patience, gentleness and understanding so that you could flourish once you have managed to conquer one of your fears?

I don´t know why things happened the way they did today when it comes to my own reactions and behavior, next time I am calling the police.

For anyone in The Netherlands, that is 114 when it comes to animals whether it is animal police or animal ambulance.

And the picture below is from this morning too.



Clear Communication


This morning we were going to look at a house.

As we parked the car in front of the house in question, just at the same time the real estate guy was at the door unlocking it, I said to Akasha & Elsa – the two beautiful gifts of dogs in our lives seated in the back of the van – ;
“OK, you ladies are with me now as eyes and ears and let me know what you think, whether this is the house or not for us ”.

I was very conscious of what I was doing as I was saying this, my intent was clear, communication was clear. I was also very clear in my mind about why I wanted to involve the husky ladies straight away in this.

Minutes later I must admit I had totally forgotten about what I consciously had communicated to and asked Akasha & Elsa to do just before.
Hubby and I entered the house, nice hallway with stained class windows, beautiful kitchen with wooden floor, lots of natural light. We were taking the house in, plus and minuses being scanned and the mind ticking away with observing and thinking – putting all information in to different boxes of “good”, “bad”, “needs to be fixed”, “great”, “hmmm” and more.

As I turned and walked towards the large French doors facing the garden it was as if I was literally hit by somebody pushing me back. Somebody was communicating “no way!”. Followed by “waaaaaay too small and waaaaaay too cold”.

I tried picturing the garden with more green, with maybe even grass but the picutres were blocked every time I tried.

So we went back indoors. Time to check the upstairs.

Beautiful old fashioned wooden stairs leading to the upper floors.

The second I looked up the stairs and put my foot on the first step there it was a again – a very clear, sudden and almost pushy “Forget it! Stairs are way too steep for both of us!”

As I walked through the rest of the house with my husband, adding to the plus and minus list, listening to real estate guy, checking stuff no more information came in as clear as that but I knew already that this would not be the house – and that “just” because of the garden and the stairs.

It was not until we were outside again, sitting in the car that I realized that of course that information came directly from Akasha & Elsa.
As always in Animal Communication, information came in clear and smack on – like a flash of lightning from a blue sky. It had a totally different quality that my own noticing and making list while sorting out the information as we were going through the house.
The information from the husky ladies was like “no doubt”, totally lucid and soooooo obvious.

The information put together by my thinking mind was totally a sum of analyzing, of processing.

So again, whenever you communicate with animals and nature – whether animals living with you, the nature right on your doorstep or animals and nature further away – you know that it comes from them when you realize the quality of how the information comes in. Clear, lucid, no doubt in the way it is communicated.

Thank you Akasha & Elsa for today!

Grrrrrr….. – by Elsa


Elsa, what needs to be made known?

Where should I start?
You all – people – make things so complicated. All that needs to be made known you already know in your hearts.

That you don´t play enough.
That you don´t love enough.
That you don´t share enough.
That you don´t laugh enough.
That you don´t walk enough.

Like , what if you took a walk outside your door?
I mean, really took a walk.
Noticing that you step outside, noticing life around you, your neighbours – whatever breed they are – , your part of town or the country side , how when you step outside your door you are part of everything. And if you do not participate you are still participating.
Every time you choose to not play, to not love, to not share, to not laugh, to not walk you are choosing to be part of destroying not just the earth but your own will to live, will to be.

What needs to be made known?

My God, what kind of question is that?
You all think you know so much, read this, take that course, do this, do that – but it is all useless. Completely, utterly useless as you do not put it to use for the benefit of others. You just stack it up and lock every door in or out.
Why do you do that? Why are you like that? Ask yourselves those questions and know that you can solve whatever issue you have by “just” playing, loving, sharing, laughing and walking more!

Pardon the tone but this really pisses me off.


Swedish / Kommunikation mellan djur och människor – vad djuren kan lära oss

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Detta är en artikel som jag skrev för INFO – Svenska Klubben Nederländernas tidning – i maj 2012. Temat för det numret var kommunikation.

Kommunikation mellan djur och människor – vad djuren kan lära oss

Cecilia Götherström,

Så fort våran hund skäller ”för högt”, våran katt börjar strunta i kattlådan och uträtta sina behov på vardagsrumsgolvet, hästen sparkar så fort den ser en traktor eller din man, våran undulat sjunger klockan 4 på morgonen istället för 4 på eftermiddageneller våra marsvin gnager isönder buren och därmed sina tänder är våran första tanke ”vad är det för fel”? Och vi rusar ofta till veterinären för att ta reda på vad vi kan göra för att få slut på detta jobbiga beteende.

Frågan ”vad är det för fel” är abslout inte fel fråga att ställa , för vårat djur försöker att berätta något. Och det är just det som är poängen – berätta något! Eftersom majoriteten av oss inte anser oss vara Dr. Dolitte så använder våra älskade päls och fjäderklädda familjemedlemmar det enda medel de kan för att få våran uppmärksamhet – och ”oönskat” beteende är den snabbaste och enklaste vägen. Ni som har djur har säkert listor på tillfällen när detta visat sig!

Ibland händer det att djuren kommer tillbaka från veterinären med meddelandet att allt är ok. De har kollat allt, tagit alla prover som skulle kunna behövas i detta fall och har – tack och lov – inte kunnat hittat något fel.
Eller, du har fått t.ex en kur med antibiotika, salva för exemen, annat foder från veterinären, lugnande medel mot det stress relaterade beteende ditt djur visat och det verkar gå ”åt rätt håll” men efter ett tag dyker samma eller att annat problem eller ”oönskat beteende” upp. Vad gör vi då?
Nästa steg är ofta att konsultera en specialiserad tränare eller till och med djurpsykolog. Här i Holland finns väldigt många mycket väl kvalificerade ”gedrags therapeuten” för hundar, katter och kaniner och Natural Horsemanship utövare för våra hästar , vilka är lite svårare att hitta i Sverige i samma antal.

Du kan lära dig ofantligt mycket om inte bara ditt djur, men också om dig själv och andra människor genom att jobba med t.ex en specialiserad hund tränare och psykolog. Precis som Cesar Millan , ” The Dogwhisperer” på National Geographic Channel, säger ” I rehabilitate dogs and train people”.
Och, precis som med Cesars sätt att jobba med hundar och människor, om du får chansen att jobba med eller bara prova på att sitta på en häst med en tränare som jobbar enligt Natural Horsemanship lär du dig inom ett par sekunder redan vad din hållning, ditt kroppspråk och din ”energi” (vad du utstrålar vid just det tillfället) säger till en häst samtidigt som du lär dig att läsa din hästs kroppspråk och eventuella obalanser. Hästen talar om för dig vad du måste jobba på och visar dig vad den behöver jobba på helt enkelt, och det utan att vi använder sagda ord för att prata.

Så, om vi har kommit såhär långt redan att vi vid dethär stadiet har lärt oss att kommunicera genom att observera (lyssna, titta, följa), känna efter och som summa av dessa förstå vad det är som kommunicerats utan att yttra ett talat ord – när vi har kommit såhär långt p.g.a vårat djur var ”jobbigt” och vi inte kunde ”lösa” situation direkt, ja då har vi verkligen kommit jättelångt! Vi har helt plötsligt, tack vare vårat djur, kommit i kontakt med vårat eget innersta väsen, med våran intution.
Via användandet av alla våra fem sinnen i nuet kommer vi i kontakt med detdär ”mysteriösa” sjätte sinnet, vilket egentligen inte är så mysteriöst utan något som vi alla har.
Djur kommunicerar med varandra via kroppspråk, ljud och även vad vi kallar ”intuitiv kommunikation” och ”intuitiv kommunikation” kan vi lära oss att hitta tillbaka till av djuren. Ofta är det vad de börjar med när de vill berätta något för oss, men eftersom vi inte använder oss av detta i dagliga livet är ledningarna lite igendammade och din hund kan till slut inte annat göra än att skälla i tid och otid eller äta upp soffan.

Precis som du lär dig av Cesar, häst tränaren, katt psykologen eller kaninuppfödaren om du tar dig tid att gå till botten av ”problemet” , efter att ha försakrat dig om att det ej är av medicinskt art via veterinären, har det väldig ofta något med dig som ”ägare” att göra eller med miljön familjen befinner sig i. Något som behöver uppmärksammas, lösas, förändras eller helas. Så om du är djurägare tvingas du mer eller mindre att utvecklas vare sig du vill eller inte .
I mitt extra-jobb som ”Animal Communicator” (intuitiv kommunikation med djur) kommer jag ofta i kontakt med djur som efter att de berättat varför de gör vissa saker, vad som behöver förbättras eller ändras, även har djupa / betydelsefulla meddelanden till sina ”människor” (djur gillar inte att kalla oss ”ägare”, de kallar oss helst ”min människa” – och in Billie Deans bok ” Secret Animal Business” har hon ett jättefint exempel där hon berättar att människorna hon jobbade med i Peru inte hade något ord som”djurägare” i sitt språk utan de sa om sin hund ”this beautiful gift of a dog who is with me” ). Oftast är det saker direkt till sin ”människa” dessa djur delar, men inbland är det meddelanden som vi alla kan ta åt oss.

En av mina favoriter från i år kom från Leilani, en katt i Torrance, Kalifornien som talade om för sin människa Nancy att hennes uppgift i Nancys liv var att lära henne att fokusera på rätt saker, att ta sig tid att observera allt på djupet, att lära sig att vara alert istället för nervös. När jag frågade Leilani vad hon precis menade med det sa hon ” Alert är något du bara kan vara när kommer från en känsla av djup, av djupt förstående och djup avslappning”. Hon fortsatte med ”Det kanske känns som om du får mindre gjort men du uppnår mer”, och hon avslutade med en kort mening som jag senare var tvungen att be en engelstalande från födseln förklara för mig, vilken var ” Magnitude, not multitude”.
Fritt översatt tror jag det blir ”Storhet, ej mångfald”, och det är en mening jag burit med mig sedan jag pratade med Leilani. Det är bara ett exempel på vad djuren vill lära oss.
Så vad försöker ditt djur berätta för dig?

Om du är nyfiken på mer: / Cesar Millan, The Dog Whisperer, känd från TV / The Horse Whisperer, Monty Roberts, känd från TV / Natural Horsemanship i Holland / Margit Coates, Animal Communicator & Healer, känd från TV / Min blogg / Animal Communicator och författare, min lärare / Animal Communicactor, författare, filmmaker

The whole world is mine


A few days ago I was walking the usual weekly “veggie-round” with the two dear husky ladies I have in my life, Akasha and Elsa. The “veggie – round” is a walk along the river Spaarne here in Haarlem, all the way to Heemstede and then we cross the bridge to the other side where we pick up our weekly veggie package at the eco market, working our way back home via the cute little ferry where the ladies always get dog cookies from the captain.

Strolling along – or to be honest I should say “me being tugged along” – the water, lined with high reed moving in the wind, I, for what felt like the thousandth time that morning, asked Elsa who was doing her usual over-enthusiastic pulling on the leash “why are you in such a hurry? Where are you going?”

“I am just happy”, she told me back. “The whole world is mine”.

“The whole world is mine?” I thought to myself, questioning. My first reaction was “that´s arrogant” and before I could finish that piece of judgement or even stop it from materializing into an actual thought Elsa told me;

“No, it is not like that! It has nothing to do with ownership. It is just the opposite! The whole world is mine, just as it is yours, and everyone´s. I don´t own it, you don´t own it, no one owns it – it just is mine yours, everyone´s – ain´t that great, ain´t that awesome? Just feel what it does to you when you realize that!”….

Akasha on Love


Since I attended Marta Williams workshops here in The Netherlands for the second time around about a month ago I took her advice to heart to communicate with my own animals daily, and that is when you really start to notice that after some time that they open up and initiate conversations with you too more often.

Yesterday Akasha all of a sudden told me, as I was hanging out with her at her favourite place to sleep for the night at the moment, which is in the hallway snuggled up against the cold tiles of the wall, that ;

“Love is not something you do.
Love is when you hold space together, when you really are in that space together.
When you say “I love you”, you feel love but it is not inside you, it is not something that is yours or that you really feel, it just is.
It is in that space which we are holding together right now. Always. That space is always there. Everything is space, space is everywhere, so love is everywhere. When you notice space, you notice Love.”

And her name is Akasha……

News: Beginnerscourse Animal Communication, in Dutch

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Beginnerscursus Telepathisch communiceren met Dieren en Natuur

door Gerrie Huijts en Cecilia Götherström
9 en 10 november 2013 in Villa Vijf 33 te Vijfhuizen

Telepathie met dieren is niet het ‘lezen’ van de lichaamstaal van een dier. Het gaat om informatie die je binnenkrijgt via je zintuigen in de vorm van gedachten, beelden, gevoelens of fysieke ervaringen of gewoon door ‘weten’. Telepathie vindt plaats op een meditatief bewustzijnsniveau en is niet gebonden aan tijd, ruimte of afstand.

Als wij communiceren met dieren kunnen zij ons dingen duidelijk maken over zichzelf en hun achtergrond, over hun gezondheid, over wat hun zorgen baart en altijd hebben ze ook boodschappen en adviezen voor ons. Ze kunnen ons een spiegel voorhouden, als onze gids fungeren en ons anders tegen zaken laten aankijken. Er zullen letterlijk en figuurlijk nieuwe werelden voor je open gaan!
De cursus bestaat uit 2 dagen van 10.00 tot 17.00 uur, met veel ruimte voor individuele aandacht. Voorkennis is niet noodzakelijk. Na afloop van de cursus ben je in staat zelfstandig telepathische gesprekken te voeren met dieren en natuur! De kosten zijn

€ 195,00 per persoon voor de hele cursus. Dit is incl. 21% BTW, het cursusmapje en een heerlijke biologische en vegetarische lunch, koffie, thee en lekkers.

Neem foto’s van dieren mee, waar je mee wilt oefenen. Alle soorten dieren zijn mogelijk. Denk ook alvast na wat voor vragen je zou willen stellen. Heb je geen foto’s, dan geeft dat niet, dan doen we het zonder. Er zullen tevens een aantal honden live aanwezig zijn, die heel ervaren zijn in telepathische communicatie. Het is helaas niet mogelijk om eigen dieren mee te nemen naar de cursus.

De workshop wordt gegeven door Gerrie Huijts. Zij heeft sinds jaren een professionele praktijk voor telepathische consulten met dieren en natuur. Ook is zij celzout- en bloesemtherapeut, geeft ze Reconnective Healingen en coacht zij mensen op het gebied van hun persoonlijke en spirituele ontwikkeling. Daarnaast geeft zij regelmatig cursussen, lezingen en begeleidt zij veel oefengroepen op dit gebied door het hele land.

Zij wordt geassisteerd door Cecilia Götherström, die sinds 2011 werkt als dierentolk & Reiki master voor dieren, naast haar Yoga- en voedingspraktijk. Sinds begin 2013 volgt zij ook de “teacher training” bij Gerrie, en geeft workshops communiceren met dieren voor kinderen.
Mocht je tussendoor nog vragen hebben, laat ons dat gerust weten:

Gerrie Huijts    0317-840362

Cecilia Götherström   06-46157019

Tot ziens of horens!

Oh yes, they understand

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Yesterday we were in Elswout for a long walk with our dear husky ladies, enjoying the coolness of the shade in between the magic trees in this the most beautiful oasis outside Haarlem.

At the end of the walk we ended up next to the deer, where on a sunny Sunday in the middle of summer you always have plenty of families with very young children checking the deer out.

There were quite some fawns born the past week and two adorable ones were pretty close to the fence, checking the kids out with the same curiousity they kids checked them out.

All of a sudden one of the children´s mother said;
“They are soooooooooooo cute, right!?”

Her daughter tilted her curly blond little head towards her and said “yes, mum” as her brother was breaking off twigs to feed the doe and her friends.

“Should we take them home?” mum asked – and that very second the four doe´s and two bucks jumped up, turned around and chased the fawns off to the middle of the field.

“Oh my G, what happened” mum said, looking puzzled.
“I have no clue” dad replied, and they were both shaking their heads.

Yeah, what happened?
Animals listen…..



I was making my afternoon tea as usual on a regular afternoon as there was a barking from a female dog travelling in through the wide open sliding doors of our balcony.
It was not a happy bark.
I had heard it the evening before as well, and the day before that in the afternoon too.
It was clearly a female dog on heat, being followed by the barking of the male dog the neighbours had, and whom somebody had decided should mate with this female.
The thing was though, she so clearly said “no” – for hours it felt like.
In between the “I want, I want” of the male dog and the “no f….ing way” of the female dog barks going on there was the laughter and cosiness of “hanging out” from the humans in the same garden.
I got really worked up of the ignorance of us, the human race, while making my tea.
It was so obvious to me that this female dog did not want to have any offspring from or with this male dog, and it was also not going to happen as she was making it very, very clear.

Instead of separating these two dogs, the humans were hanging out enjoying a beautiful summer afternoon and evening in the garden – totally oblivious about the stress both dogs were in.
The male dog totally stressed out by his hormones and the proximity of the female on heat. The female dog totally stressed out as she had to be on edge, bark and snap constantly.

One part of me just wanted to walk over there and ask them what they were up to, how could they not react to these two beings in stress .The other part was struggling with what I struggle with for quite a while now since I got into this work as an Animal Communicator- which is that reality is that most people just don´t know that or see their animals as the equal beings they are in our households and lives.

In the meantime both dogs were kept in a state of stress we would not want to experience ourselves.

A few days later I learned that this was the third male this female had said “no” to.
So – no offspring.

Before you decide to breed with your animal, even with the best intentions, do take the time to check in with your animal on what he/she wants. An Animal Communicator can be of very valuable assistance next to the necessary guidance and checks from your veterinarian in this process, to find out what partner your animal would want to breed with and most importantly of all if he/she is ready for it or not.

Moments of Gratitude – Movements of Grace

Every day we have moments filled with things in our lives to be grateful for.

Test it out for one day, for one afternoon or for just one hour; Set the intention to notice the moments you are grateful for. Then, as you go along say “thank you” for everyone of those moments, being as specific or none specific as you like – saying out loud or just inwards, and see how it feel s during or your hour, afternoon, day. It is literally counting the blessings we have, no matter how our life looks, as we go along.

I have tried keeping a gratitude journal as I have read and also heard from a lot of friends and collegues that it really does work. It is a beautiful thing to take that moment at the end of the day, to sit down with your pen and notebook and note down 3 things that you experienced during that day that you are grateful for. It works wonders! But for me, that gratitude journal just turned into something else that had to be done every day – another thing on the list and on the pile. One more thing staring me in the face before I went to bed that still called out needed to be completed… I am pretty sure that is not the intention of a gratitude journal (unless you actually start with your number 1 point for that day being “I am grateful that I have this gratitude journal I have to sit down and list what I am grateful for right now” )!

This morning I woke up, my whole body aching after actually having done too much physical work this week (yes, this happens to a yoga teacher as well ), knowing that I could not go attend the lesson from my collegue in Amsterdam that I had so long been looking forward to due to the fact that I simply could not pay for the train ride and I decided right there and then to not do a very long heavy practice this morning but a soft one, a loving practice for myself as my whole system was aching for it.

I had three hours planned for practice this morning and was looking forward to it.

As I was rolling my mat out, lighting my candles, getting my meditation space set up, the beautiful gift of a husky in my life called Akasha came to greet me. She sat down, licked my face and then turned around asking for a massage. As I started massaging her spine, it was like I was releasing my own knots and then I realized that she was helping me to do this. She lay down so that I could massage her hind legs and in that moment I felt my own legs getting less sore simultaneously. Even my feet had been aching when I woke up and that was slowly diminishing as I was keeping one sole of my foot touching hers and as we switched sides for the leg massage I switched foot as well. We spent a good half hour there in the hallway, and every breath we took together was full of gratitude. Her gratitude towards me, which I felt and saw in her eyes for the massage, for caring for her and Elsa (the other husky living with us), for my husband and I sharing our lives with them. My gratitude towards her for everything she was teaching me about exactly gratitude in that very moment – and out of that I felt a gratitude even deeper growing for the fact that I am a human lucky enough to experience what is like living with an animal. The deeper my gratitude got, the thinner the (imagined) boundary between me and this being right in front of me became. What she taught me this morning was that trough the gratitude we can feel in the present moment we are all beings in this together – man, mountain, animal, sea, tree…. And wow, that truly is something to be grateful for!

So with less time on my hands, and for the first time in my whole 40 year old life not caring about that fact, I went to my yoga space for my practice.

I spent a very long time with a roll under my shoulder blades, releasing those shoulders and exhaling into every place that needed release and space – this time with gratitude for what it was teaching me, instead of with recognition of what I had done “wrong” or “too much” for my body to feel that way.

Then an even longer time in meditation – and the fact that the window had to stay open due to the heat and I live on the street where all the buses run through did not even bother me. I was surrendering. Big time.

A few soft kriya’s later I was still in heaven.

And grateful for it!